I was leading a double life that was pulling me apart
I was brought up in a very strict religious home. When I got older I eventually started going through the motions of getting up and going to church and doing the things I was supposed to do. My falling away from the Lord happened very fast, I quit reading my Bible and did just enough to get by at church. I soon started leading a double life, wanting the things of the world, and the things of God. I quickly found out you cannot serve two masters. I had a rebellious attitude; I thought that I didn’t need God or the whole “religion” thing. I wanted to do things my way and just have fun. However that road wasn’t as fun as I thought it was going to be. I became heavily involved in drugs, alcohol and pill popping. My depression became so great that I even resorted to trying suicide a few times. On one occasion I remembered waking up the next day and was sad that I was still alive. The road that seemed so fun before became a dead-end street that was shrouded in darkness. The fun of parting only lasted for awhile then my hurt and pain came back again. I was obviously at the end of my rope. I knew my life had to change, or I would not have one. I prayed to God one night (the first time in years) and told him I loved Him and I wanted to worship Him again. I needed His help. I needed and wanted the peace I once had. The very next day I was at work and a Christian friend asked if I would like to go to church. Even after I prayed and asked God for help, I was still fighting Him. I knew He sent that friend to help me. I did end up going to church that night and have not quit going since.
Please open your heart to the one who can heal it.
The Lord has been speaking to me and I have never been closer to Him in my whole life. Jesus wasn’t lying when he said in His word “Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.” I knew the Lord spoke to people but I never felt he spoke to me. Now I know if you search and seek for His face He will reveal himself to you. God is awesome and he has saved me from death. Through Him I now have an abundant life. I praise Him everyday for bringing me through and giving me my peace and life back. If you don’t have the Lord in your life I hope that you will seek Him with all you have and find Him too.
Update 2014: Katie got married and is still free from addiction and serving the Lord.
"Jesus said to her, I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me will live even if he dies, and everyone who lives and believes in Me will never die. Do you believe this?"
~ John 11:25